A Letter To The One That Got Away.

3 Nov

Dear The One That Got Away,

I hope this letter will come as a pleasant surprise – or at least a pleasant confirmation of niggling doubt (It’s times like this that I wish I could read your mind!) – either way, I hope you’re not digusted by the revelations! (I’m scared now..)

I have spent about 2 years (on and off, I’m not that much of a stalker!) now trying to figure these feelings out, but I guess it’s about time to come clean – somewhere between late night study buddy dates, sunbathing with pizza and an abundance of drunkeness, I fell for you.

Apparantly it was obvious to everyone else that we were crazy about eachother?! (If you had heard these rumours and a) didn’t tell me, or b) it was true and you didn’t declare your undying love for me (!) then I’m going to kill you!)

Do you remember that day you came round to our place and the girls and I were sunbathing in the garden? (You were wearing a white top if that helps – stalker alert!) 3rd housemate had her boyfriend around and the way we acted towards eachother prompted him to believe that you were my boyfriend.

I’m not 100% sure where I’m going with this (standard!) but I guess that afternoon just cemented the feelings in my mind (I think it took me a while to realise what I felt at all…you know what I’m like!)

On the night that we did finally start to get together (so so drunk, but YES! AT LAST!) I wish I’d told you how much I’d wanted it to happen, or asked you what you thought, how you felt, or suggested that we carried things on – but in the morning I was just so relieved that nothing was awkward and you got up and walked me home, and that we were still friends, that any other thoughts just went to the back of my mind…

I guess what I’m trying to say through all this rambling is that I like you, and I have done for a long time now, and some things that I’ve heard (and seen/imagined) suggest that you do or have felt the same, so I need to know where you’re at with this?!

I’ve spent a while (read: all my free time) thinking about this and trying to get over it, but I think I owe it to myself (and you) to tell you and see what happens. As long as I always have you as a friend I will be fine.

Love,

Sophie.

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2 Responses to “A Letter To The One That Got Away.”

  1. melissa November 4, 2011 at 5:08 pm #

    Ah girl, I feel your pain. I have this thing where I have the longest standing crushes in female history & never how to tell them my feelings. Curse of a shy girl! Hope things work out with you and mystery boy 🙂

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