Sometimes The Only Way Is Jumping, I Hope You’re Not Afraid Of Heights…

18 Feb

I’m having a bit of a life freak out. In fact, I think it’s been brewing for a while now. I just feel a little bit stuck in a rut. (Normally when this happens, I get a haircut – the chat with my hairdresser and a new look normally sorts me out, but this time it hasn’t even come close!)

Panic and freak out

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I’m worried about the future, more specifically the next academic year. I am becomng so much better at completing goals and ticking things off my life bucket list, but I’m concerned that I am going to reach September and be unemployed with no money and no idea about where my life is going.

I know what I enjoy and I know where I want to be, I just don’t seem to be able to work out quite how to get there.

I want to spend some time travelling to new places, meeting people and seeing things that are more amazing than I ever could have imagined and really pushing myself to the limit. I want to learn some new things and teach people at the same time.

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I feel like I am making sensible choices in working hard for my TEFL course and trying to save some money, but it’s just difficult to see how these things are going to materialise in to the adventures that I want. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m scared, terrified in fact!

I can’t help but think that the choice to apply for jobs and move to a country that I may never have visited is stupid, but I can’t exactly afford to just pop off to these places for a few days first! I’m scared to go without a friend, scared that the whole experience may not be what I expect and want it to be, but I know that if I stayed in the UK I would regret it forever.

I need to put myself out there. Now is the time, I will be turning 24 this week. I have no ties, a fair amount of savings and a lot of supportive friends and family. I just need to bring myself to take the first steps…

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2 Responses to “Sometimes The Only Way Is Jumping, I Hope You’re Not Afraid Of Heights…”

  1. melissa February 18, 2013 at 5:24 pm #

    These kinds of decisions are SO tough, but we have to believe that life has a plan for us! You’ve traveled (and by yourself!) before, so I KNOW that wherever you end up, you’ll make it work and have an amazing time. Have faith that you’re awesome and you’re taking the right choices for yourself. And anyway… Home will never be too far away if you hate it 😉

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